and i slowly go insane

so today i skipped another team lunch cos momma beckoned(using reverse psychology) twas bittersweet.

i felt like being a good lil daughter so i agreed to do a uuuturn and walk to her polyclinic,which i did. ate lunch with her, then we went to nissan service centre to change some car battery(which i later found out was car KEY batteries) then we went tampines to pick up my repaired samsung phone (which according to jojo is lousyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy(sometimes i think so too but its still mine so i still like it ha)) and her fila shirt AND, the best part's here

at tampines we started shopping like we were meant to be shopping.

mum's trying to look for dresses, i was just looking around, looking for a bag which is quite badly needed. didnt manage to decide, so tmr we're gna get me a bag (:

so where's the bitter where's the sweet?

sweet's in the shopping part. bitter's in the shopping part too,ironically. its about time i stopped sponging off my mum like she's gna provide for me all my life. bout time i stopped buying stuff everytime we're out. there's more to an outing than just shopping, there's more to happiness between us than just buying me stuff

right?

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training today was better, i think. i dont care if im hopeless or useless in the team.im not, i repeat, not gna lay back just cos i think ive lost.

we're all troubled souls but we can change that. and we can start, by starting with ourselves.

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today feels like a day where i shouldnt say anything cos everything that comes out comes out wrong. and i think im right.