im back (:

but the funny thing is, tonight when i walked through the door it felt just like any other day.

i wonder if my mum/sis wouldve noticed if i didnt tell them i had a camp.

even miko felt normal no waggywaggy tail and licking my face

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just read my sister's blog. it never rains it pours(just like today), but there's always a way to be happy, you just gotta want to, you gotta believe in it

and she said something about cheating on your other half and i remembered i took a test about how much you'd cheat on your partner and i got 100% which was freaky

and totally untrue.

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Post's cranberry almond crunch is awesome its like blueberry morning

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ok about the camp!

it was.....different. i felt independent. there werent any 'ohmygosh lets go do someting crazy at night just because.' kind of moments(though we slept at the gallery), there werent any i-wanna-talk-through-the-night feeling anymore, and there wasnt as much fun and laughter as ive had but it was an experience. maybe this is what happens when youve grown up, even just a little bit.

went fort canning to geo-trek(WE REALLY TREKKED DIDNT WE HUH) it was damn fun the map's so misleading i thought we'd have to run our lungs out to complete it in two hours but we managed to happily stroll, climb 'hills' and battle monster ants heh.

the number game was fun too

soccer in the rain(though only 15 minutes) made me happy inside(cos of the rain)

but this camp's a success, i feel. now i really understand the j1s better, they're so much more a part of me now than before. i just hope they feel the same, i hope it stays this way.

i hope you know im here for you, i hope you know there's more in life to smile at, i hope you know the surface speaks lies and that every moment of sadness is temporary

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i know i was just thrown somewhere, somewhere else, because the original's not for me, its saved for someone better. but its fine, it really is. hurts, but its fine because i know my place.