i wish you'd see

see so many things.

if i were the mum and you were the child, how'd you feel? there's so much to say to you but will you even listen, listen as a person completely neutral and not as someone with mum's pride.

what rubbish. maybe you're so used to seeing only what you want to see, that all you see now is what you dont see.

i'd give up SO MUCH. but what kind of signs will that give you huh. i cant do this, i cant do THAT, then?!

ergh!

thankyou

3 more weeks? haha no.

3 more days.

and im thankful for all who've cared; the cakes cookies, and donuts, the messages calls and hugs, the tips and encouragement and most of all, just letting me know you're there.

blessed. really (:

GP weaves the web of answers

murdoch:

'By opening our eyes we do not necessarily see what confronts us. We are anxiety-ridden animals. Our minds are continually active,fabricating an anxious, usually self-preoccupied, often falsifying veil, which partially conceals the world. Our states of consciousness differ in quality. Our fantasies and reveries are not trivial and unimportant, they are profoundly connected with our energies and our abilities to choose and act. And if quality of consciousness matters, then anything which alters consciousness in the direction of unselfishness, objectivity and realism is to be connected with virtue.'